As of late…
The last couple of weeks have been hell. Perhaps that’s the best reason I have for not updating so much. Or not. It all began when Maricruz broke up with me. Why did we break up? It’s still confusing. Because her mom would flip. But now Maricruz is sorta kind of seeing a guy (who I happen to work with) and it just kills me. Everytime I see him at work I just wanna cry. And the whole situation is confusing. She kind of likes Zach (the guy), but she’s in love with me and wants to be with me. So why can’t she? If that’s what she wants, I think she should. But she’s scared her mom will find out and will not allow her sisters to talk to her. I can understand that. And her mom has said some harsh things without even knowing. Maricruz said we should try it like this for just a little while. It’s hard. Since we broke up, we broke down and had sex numerous times. I don’t see the difference, you know? I just want to be her girlfriend and I wish Zach would just bug off. I don’t really know what to do anymore.
